The World Of Ironies

It’s true, the more you try to understand the world, the more confused you get.

Even looking at quotations and sayings from various popular writers and authors, you’ll notice many contradicting views.

Here are some of my observations:

Some say “Actions speak louder than words”,

while others “Pen is mightier than the sword”

Some say “Be who you are. Be original.”,

while others “Change is inevitable. There’s only survival of the fittest”

Some say “Those who worry about the future can’t enjoy their present”

while others “You’re the architect of your future. Today’s actions define tomorrow’s fate”

My take is that everything is perspective. Nothing’s truly correct, nothing’s truly wrong. It’s what our perspective towards them make us feel so. And yeah, the world is a mess.

The Life Express

Moving on in life, masked in disguise;

Driven by acceptance ‘o society!

With expectations of dears

And the greatest of almighty;

Dawns vanish and days slip,

Nights repeat, with the familiar beats.

Things go fast, things go wrong

But nothing’s going to last so long;

Traveling in an express of beam;

But the time I waited for,

Is still nowhere to be seen.

Present is past, future is the present

Say the wordly people of words;

And I raise no doubts or shocks,

For I had all the silenced talks.

~Gautam Kabiraj

Lost ray of delight

Merging into a beam of light,

Losing my own ray of delight;

In an endless race of blinded vision,

With indefinite destination,

continuing my every breathe,

Moving, evolving, and hustling 

but with procrastination.

Damn, what a puzzled situation…

Any explanation?
~Gautam Kabiraj

Yet another nightmare …

So last night, I had yet another nightmare after a long time. Before I tell you what it was about, there’s something you need to know beforehand. My grandfather had expired in 2011, and ever since then I often had glimpse of his memories in random events. Well, this is how it began:

I was visiting my village during the summer vacation, after a long time. I entered our house and was delighted to see my grandma welcoming me. My grandma had always been more supportive to me than she did to my sister. It was the exact opposite with my grandpa. After spending the whole day with her, exchanging news and stories, it was finally the diner time. We had diner. Later, I went out with grandma for a neighbor walk. You know, people in villages tend to finish diner in the evening only and they spend the next few hours roaming and talking.

It was dark. And silent. There were more trees than houses. There was no electricity. During the night walk, I saw an old woman standing right in front of me. She said “Come here! Let me help you get to your grandpa!”. I was hell shocked, and was like “What the hell are you talking about? He’s not here ‘nymore!” but, I couldn’t utter a word, and instead turned to where my grandma was standing. But to my shock, she wasn’t there either. She vanished right beside me. The old lady repeated “Don’t worry, you’ll be back within an hour. I promise”. Saying which, she started proceeding towards me. I was frozen. I could hear nothing but my breathe and her voice. Everything went black.

All of a sudden the lady vanished, too. I got into consciousness and was standing right beside my grandma. I asked her, pointing to the direction  “Who was that old lady? And where did you go a minute ago?”. She replied “Who? I didn’t see anyone. Let’s go home now. Your grandpa is waiting”. Guys, I swear I’m getting goosebumps while writing this!! I asked her “But wait, our grandpa has expired right? Didn’t we all attend the funeral together?”. “No, don’t say such rubbish things in night time! I’ll complain to your dad tonight. Let’s go, quick!” she replied. Guess what? We went to our home and my grandpa was waiting for me. He talked to me about a lot of stuff like, how was my study going, how’s my sister doing, etc. Then, while having diner, an old man came running into our house (who isn’t there anymore in reality) and asked grandpa, “Hey, what stuff did you asked me to buy from Visakhapatnam? I’m going there now” (Visakhapatnam is about 900km from our home). Grandpa replied about his share of items. The man went out, and returned back the next minute. He said “Here, separate your items from mine”. I was confused as hell. All my consciences, sciences and logic failed. Maybe, the dead people can fly at speed of light. When, finally going back to sleep, I got frozen again. I couldn’t move. I returned to real life (within the dream, or nightmare, or dreamomare…whatever), walking with grandma and when I was about to ask her about all these stuff …. guess what? Yeah, mom woke me up. It was around 11:40 am though.

 

Vacation Ends

Amongst the midst of humus and haze,
Here comes the greeny rainy days;
Not that it will last too long,
You won’t realize before it’ll be gone
My worst days are about to begin
Summer vacation of freedom and rhapsody,
Have come to an end,
And will soon be forgotten…
I really hate college with all my might,
Never ever wanna see its sight!
Separating me from my own interests,
And pulling into a series of distress
Damn, how reckless!
No one is to blame but me,
Chose the path that I could see;
Education equates rott learning,
Helps some folks in their earning…
This is how this country works
What ye do? It’s run by jerks.
But, like everything else,
It’ll be over soon;
Time flies, faster than light
And phases of moon…
Anyway, my lunch is here,
Got to go, see ya later!

Am I lost?

Time flies. Five months have already passed, and a lot has happened since I made my last post here.  Obviously.

I’m an Introvert, I don’t really like discussing my things with others.  Not even friends. The fact is, majority of the people don’t care (Of course, they’ve got their own problems to deal with).  And the minority would be glad I have those problems.  I take most of my decisions by myself.  My parents always support me, though.

I don’t know where to begin.  Right now, summer vacation is going on.  College may reopen later this month. And I’ll be in 3rd year.  But that is least of my concerns.

I quit overthinking

Not that I didn’t already know, but overthinking does more bad than good. I tried myself a test subject. And the fact remained a fact.

What I’ve lately realized is that I overthink a lot. For every small reason, for every small issue and for every small event. I even take people’s words so seriously sometimes that it bumbles around my head for days. But at the end of the day, it all makes no sense. Everything comes down to the deeds of the day. My own deeds. Not my thoughts, or people’s words.

I had a weird dream last night

Last night, I probably had the most weird dream of my entire life. I better call it nightmare for you’ll understand why, very soon.

How to create a ‘easy-to-remember’ but ‘hard-to-guess’ password?

The days are gone when you had two or three passwords to keep in mind. Now with accounts made in hundreds of websites, it becomes a tough job to manage all the passwords.

You’ve got quite a few solutions right? Like the password managers that save passwords for you? or the internet browser password saver? But how safe are they? Should you really allow a password manager to save your bank credentials which may have access to other 3rd party companies against their promise?